You are confused, suffering, empty, and lonely because you read too little and think too much. So you must read more books.

First read classical masterpieces from China and the West:
"I and the Temple of Earth" "The Great Gatsby" "Morning Flowers Gathered at Dusk"
"Old Tales of the South City" "Wuthering Heights" "Love in a Fallen City" "To Live"
"The Red and the Black" "Crime and Punishment" "Resurrection" "Grass and Trees of the World"
"Rebecca" "Walden"

Then read about marriage and love:
"Fortress Besieged" "The Moon and Sixpence" "The Painted Veil" "Dream of the Red Chamber"
"Jane Eyre" "Pride and Prejudice" "The Lady of the Camellias"
"Nedelya" "Strait is the Gate" "The Unbearable Lightness of Being"
"Intimate Relationships" "Madame Bovary" "Letter from an Unknown Woman"

Then read about personal growth:
"Cognitive Awakening" "Grandma's Apology Letter"
"Educated" "A Room of One's Own" "Anne of Green Gables" "The Ordinary World" "The Thorn Birds"
"The Little Prince" "Camellia Stationery Store" "The Catcher in the Rye"
"A Tree Grows in Brooklyn"

Then read about psychology and cognition:
"The Courage to Be Disliked" "Mr. Toad Goes to See a Psychologist"
"Inferiority and Transcendence" "How to Win Friends and Influence People" "Six Thinking Hats"
"Crucial Conversations" "Understanding Human Nature" "The Almanack of Naval Ravikant" "The Black Swan"

Finally read history and philosophy:
"Those Things About the Ming Dynasty" "Biography of Zuo Zongtang" "Sophie's World"
"Apology of Socrates" "Comprehensive Mirror for Aid in Government" "The Silk Road"
"Siddhartha" "Klingsors Last Summer"

You all go ahead and read. Anyway, I haven't read 😅 yet.